Day Thirteen

Spring Break was a tremendous week for us. It was a needed time of rest. I took a nap every afternoon. One day I slept in the hammock for six hours. I probably needed more rest that I originally thought.

As is always the case on vacation, I had time to think. That always gets my mental juices flowing. I came back with stronger resolve than ever to be very intentional this year. It was actually the last night that made me realize that the year would be even more amazing than I initially thought.

A number of years ago, I met with a great therapist, Tom Camp. During our visits, I described where I was emotionally in the following way.

“I feel like I am on the edge of a building ready to jump and fly, but something kept pulling me back to the roof. I will soar for a short while, but then the cord catching and I get pulled back.” I never fully resolved the things that pulled me back to the roof during those visits, but at least I understood what was happening.

Over the past few years I have clipping the cords that were pulling me back, one at a time. Friday morning I had a very different dream. I have learned to pay attention to my dreams and thoughts during the early morning hours. This is usually a time of good insight for me. I had the same dream about being on the edge of the building and jumping. This time, though, I flew – no strings attached to pull me back. I soared, spinning, doing loops, and rocketing up. It was the inner signal that I was being propelled upward and onward, not back to some fearful past.

My story has changed.

During the next few days I will write about some of the new thoughts and plans for this year. When I look back I realize that for the past year or so I have been doing some things different - most of them unconscious. Everything has been converging to create a new future.