Day Twenty Four

It is almost the end of March. Technically, I started on March 28, so we are into this a month. The thought for this day is walking by faith. I have always found that phrase a rather trite religious phrase that had little meaning for me, until recently. Most of the time when I have heard it over the years, it was used as a way to deny responsibility or give up control of the things that are clearly within your control. I now have a real and relevant meeting for me personally.

Walking by faith means going as far as you can see with the belief that you will be able to see farther once you get to that point. It has played out over and over during the past ten months. It has finally made a believer out of me. If you have been reading these blogs you know that it has been an extremely challenging time for us economically. When I make a commitment to get healthy emotionally I made a no turning back commitment. Even if it killed me physically or we went belly up economically, I was not going to turn back.

Strangely, during that time, we always found enough money to pay the bills. We still have a huge hill to climb to get to even ground, but I have now come to believe in this path. The same has been true with connections. I asked someone to be my business mentor. That relationship led to a long term contract helping his organization is some strategic areas. Tyler is home from school waiting to see what happens on his journey. During that time he is pumped about the father and son stuff. He is doing the leg work and planning now that can lead us into the future.

This weekend, I could have easily fallen into the pit of despair, but I made a conscious choice not to do so. Instead, I made a choice to believe that things would work out and focus on the things that were within my control. When I focused on what was clearly within my control and let the rest take care of itself, it did in fact work out.

Then, I stumbled on the Matrix again. I have not watched it in a couple of years. Reading it was like reading the story of Jesus or the writings of the medicine men. I was reminded of how we make the commitment to go on the journey, not knowing what the end destination will be. It is a choice. It is a choice that requires more than 30 days of focus. We are just about finished with the first 30 days. It is time for round 2 – April.