June 3

When I was at Merrie Woode last weekend, I had difficulty going to sleep. I realized again that when you have one great insight, you peal the layers back only to see that there is so much more to learn and so much more growth to take place. This is in a good sense, not in a “your not there yet” or “your not good enough” sense. I was at camp helping with counselor orientation. It is one of the most peaceful places on earth, and one of the most joyous. The windows were open in the bedroom. I could hear the waterfall rushing across the rocks and pounding the rocks at the bottom of the falls. It usually creates a restful sleep.

Unfortunately, I found that I could not let my mind slow down. The chatter in the mind was moving at breakneck speed. I would try to calm it and I would then begin thinking about what I was going to talk about the next day. It is the voice in my head that was not slowing down.

I finally was able to calm the voice and I had a restful night’s sleep. Very restful. I awoke at 6am relaxed. In the fuzzy zone I realized that everything about my historical actions has been busyness.

I also realized that my never maximized my potential because I was always hurrying from one thing to the next. I found it in relationships, in my work, in my exercise, in my writings, in my presentations and facilitation of things.

I knew that there was a reason for me to be at Merrie Woode. This was it. I slowed down the next day and really focused on living in the moment. It was probably the best counselor training session in many days.